Help!! I cant concentrate!

Okay one question to everyone. How the hell does one get their concentration during holidays??? Exams are three days to go but everytime I sit down with my books either I am sleepy or I start staring at Brett Lee (darn i should remove that picture from my notice Board) or I suddenly start craving for chocolates or pasta. Its just pestiferous!! It's like I am allergic to my books or something.. And after calling up the next door store every one hour for ordering Tang or Maggi or Pasta (its yum) or Kur Kure. The store waala can even recongnize my voice!! Everytime i call him up he goes like "Saket vaali Bahenji?? Ji bataye kitne pasta chahiye?" Hes actually making fun of me!!!
With me in such grievious times, contemplating killing Chona for keeping our vacations so short. A little pycho girl tells me cheekily "Oh i want to go to school" My emotions then: Slap her Bang the phone down, Call the police, take her to a shrink. I mean why, why would anyone thing such hideous thoughts. What conditions one must be in to WANT to go back to dumb classes with sophie (our crazy math teacher)?
Am i being melodramatic or as Akanksha would put it -histrionic behaviour.. But i just don't want to go to school. Not that i dont like school. Schools heaven.. schools adams garden of fruit.. But i rather stay in Satans hell and study then go to paradise mountains and get up at 5:30 AM ..
The good news however of the summer is ... Desperate housewives being telecasted in india. !! (yay...!!) Harry Potter 6 is getting released (i got a pre order) My birthyday is coming ( a month away but so what?) and finally Rain is here... hurray hurray!!
Now on that happy note.. i shall sadly inform you that this blog entry has come to an end ( no need for the yays!!) and i request you not to cry any more tears (enough with the boos!) as i shall be back.. Tommorrow or the day after that or next week whatever.. with more of my musings.
for now Au revoir ami(e)s!
Kisses (hersheys)
Shubhz

School reopens on Monday...

I cannot tell how the truth may be
I say the tale as it was said to me.

I was going through a pile of copies to dig out my history copy and in the process I happened to come across this copy, which had been long forgotten. I must have been in seventh then. So, I assume it is about 3 years old. It was in a pretty good condition considering the limit to which it has been ignored. If it had not been for my mom, that notebook would have long been dumped into a bag that would have eventually landed up in a ‘waste-paper’ shop, 10 minutes from my house and would have earned me under a rupee (taking into consideration its light weight). There isn’t any possible reasonable thing that can be bought from a few paise. And of course the fact that I would have never again had the time and patience to look up for the numerous quotes I had scribbled in it. Besides the quotes were some of my self composed poems. I don’t care much about them cause they aren’t anyways worth anything. In short, some of those works are awful. I remember finding a bookmark then which had this quote on it. It somehow fascinates me a lot.

On the other front, the school will reopen this Monday.
Woohoo...
I am very happy about it except the exams part. I don’t mind them much though. And they’ll get done with in a week’s time. Sounds fair enough. I so badly want to go to school and I can’t wait for Monday to come.

My messenger refuses to leave my system. Every time I uninstall it and the next time when I open the computer it reappears out of nowhere. I’ve stopped trying now. Then there is this Internet explorer who also refuses to leave me alone, in peace. Due to these two troublemakers, I can guarantee, I’ll go mad in a few days.

In other news, I went to my guitar class yesterday and I’ve started with chords- have done two as of now. There are 14 of them. Then, of course will be the bars, which are supposed to be horrible and scary. There was this girl who had gotten her car the other day and was telling sir about a small scratch she had found on finishing the class. My sir happily answered saying he had taught a couple of students bars that day and some of them taking her car to be his would have thrown some stones on it! The classes seem to be more of a laughing therapy thing than guitar lessons.

Now, I think I should be completing history...

A thousand people swarm by me
It is only your face i try to remember
figures all hazy
only your presence was clear
I was trying to tell you something
You wern't listening
Everybody was trying to get my attention
I was clawing for yours

Just as you turned in my direction
I had to leave
It was too late
Dawn was breaking
and the night pulling me with it
I struggled hard
But i was made to forget
Next morning i woke up
with the memory of a faceless stranger

Paheli and more...

I saw Paheli yesterday. My initial plan, however, was to go for Parineeta. My parents seemed very keen to go for Paheli. I decided to give in and so it goes. We went for the evening show and I had to, much to my displeasure, miss my guitar class. And then of course I realized that there wasn’t going to be any more guitar class before I am done with the exams in the first week of July. That’s sad.

Now, about the movie. To make things easy I’ll give it 3 on a scale of 1 to 5 (5 being the highest). I am not a huge fan of SRK but I like him anyhow. So, I’ll give the movie half more for SRK’s ever-outstanding performance. You are definitely not in for a review. I’ll just say it’s a nice movie and sporadically funny too. It’s definitely worth a watch.

A sardar family occupied the row in front of me, in the hall. A boy, perhaps of 8-9 years sat right in front of me. After the interval, which had me witness numerous popcorn and pepsi glasses being circulated amongst that family, I heard the boy asking his parents the name of the movie!! And the mother went like, ‘Oye Bablu, tenu bataya toh siga,Soni uncle ne. Nayee?’ (Bablu, didn’t Soni uncle tell you this?)
The first movie I saw in a hall was as a 6 year old and as much as I recall, I knew the name of the movie pretty well before going for it. Not a big deal, I agree but I couldn’t stop laughing.

On the other hand, this is probably the last movie for one or two months together. And what more- life’s not very fair these days. There is ‘supposedly’ a ban on me to read novels. Can you believe it? But I just finished with a novel a week back. As I said - supposedly.

The other day I was talking about my childhood with my cousin. Life has it’s own way everywhere. I wonder how my tastes can vary so much. There was a time when I, perhaps, used to hate the things I love today. In the early years, I am often told I was anti-chocolates, anti-ice creams and all the heavenly stuff in existence in today’s world.

I’ve had all sorts of addictions. There have been the crazy ones and certain mild ones too but they have been there almost all through my life so far I was addicted to thumb sucking till the age of 6! Was I an abnormal child or what! I however do doubt the point of me being normal even today. A couple of months back, a friend, perhaps, sensing my abnormality, sent me a mail leading me to a page which had some MCQ’s waiting eagerly. It had been designed to judge how much the person concerned is normal. And thus I was declared 40% normal. Applause. Isn’t that more than enough? I mean who wants to be normal? Not me at least.

Right now, I am at my naani’s place. And two crazy monkeys are jumping around forcing me to play hide and seek with them! Hide and seek, for heaven’s sake! How hard is it to ignore empty noises.

The weather is still very humid but I like it. It rained very heavily in the morning from about 6 to 11- the pre monsoon showers. This reminds me of my fifteenth birthday this August. All right, Shubhi’s too. I don’t want the time to pass. I want to stay in school. Only 2 years more of school- only 2 years. It’s been a wonderful experience so far.

And I am being attacked by two children. I guess I have no option but to play whatever they wish me to. If I remember correctly, there used to be a time when I used to do such things. I pity those who had to go through that toture.
Such is my paradoxical life.

I just woke up from sleep
My eyes heavy with a dream
I had witnessed few hours back.
I wonder what it could be?
What it could be….

bored 

Total books read: Seriously r u kidding..... no one can answer tht question

last book bought: What about me by Kate Figes

Last bOok read : -ditto-

5 books that rock:

Desree- foir reasons already told.. Its a beautiful book... I have read it a dozen times... and im still not tired of reading it

Kane and Abel: For reasons blatantly obvious... It is a classic book.... And speaks for itself

Love Story: For reasons that have again been told... Who cares abt dumb nicholas sparks and etc.. This is book kicks butt.. It is the Ultimate...

Deception Point Coz im bored of Da Vinci Code

My Science NCERT book: Did you fall for that?? Lol... just checkin... if u were actually reading this... or just pretending............

Okay im bored.. so im gonna go now......
byeee
shubhs

If you know me well... then you would know about once obsession with backstreet boys like years ago. Then my hatred against them ... not too quite long.. Hey I'm not bback to liking them... But there most recent song is not leaving my mind.. the lyrics are pretty nice.. but the way the song is sung is awesome... not expected from a boy Band

Incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes

Distant faces with no place left to go

Without you with me

I can't find no rest

Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is

Incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on

But I am swimming in an ocean all alone

Baby, my baby

It's written on your face

You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is

Incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on,

but I can't seem to let you go

I don't wanna make you face this world alone

I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you

I'm awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken

But without you all I'm going to be is

Incomplete

Ps that doesnt mean i like them again... !!!

The wind screamed that day
As if demanding something,
that it had already taken along.
I stood wondering as a 9 year old,
waiting to be relieved of some unknown power.
The field lay open for me to run.
The fence was laid down.
I saw my teachers in a corner,
Shouting to us for attention,
with angry frowns.
It was the same place where
I had stood with my only friend,
two years back.
I found the tree which had once,
rumored to be haunted.
As I slipped towards it,
memories brought back those years
when she had been there.
We had held hands and fought those rumors.
We had played together for hours.
I remembered that picnic day,
as my bag waited to be opened
I assumed that tree to shelter me,
wondering if I could get her company
in exchange of the treat that awaited me.

The rain poured down,
Reminding me of the day we had cried.
She had to go, she had told me.
She had to change her home,
leaving me behind.
I stood up, ready to go back,
as the teachers waved their hands,
my eyes still heavy with memories.
The rain, shamefully hiding away
the tears trickling down my face.
That day I went back home
and dialed her number.
I was told she was coming to visit me.
I changed into casuals and got her some chocolates.
I knew she loved them and
I hoped she would be happy.
When she came, she sat down crying.
A horrible fear conquered me.
Her father had died.

wat virus??

so i got da curse and i had to blog nyways so i thot wat da heck!!

total no of books i own: well A LOT! i buy atleast one book a month on average so u really cant expect me to count

the last book i bought: lets see maybe Charles dickens - pickwick papers and Angels and Demons

last book i read: Eragon by Christopher Paolini

five books that rock

Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown-- it was really a well written and fast book.a total delight to read and the fact that my book hater brother loved it speaks for itself

Secret garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett--it was one of the first 'THICK'books i read and no matter how many times i pick up and read it i still love every second of it(i dont no y!!??)

Eragon by Christopher Paolini-- i have to thank akanksha 4 givin me tht bk and once i picked it up i was addicted. thank god the sequel will be out in August

Rebecca by Daphne Du maurier-- a good read and its recommended in our booklet!(havnt finished it but ill do it)

Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri-- a really amazing book and a must read. even har short stories arent bad


as for passsing it on i dont really no any other bbokworm so i end it rite here
have fun
till next time

Okay you can rejoice…I got a Meme curse or is it virus? Thanks to
Alex

Anyways, here it goes…

Total number of books I own - I really don’t know and I’m too lazy to go count them now. Besides, all my books are never in one place with most of them occupying the fortunate places of relatives and friends.

The last book I bought – Dilbert Future by Scott Adams and The Fourth Estate by Jeffrey Archer.

Last book I read - The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand

Five Books that mean a lot to me...

1) Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine- normally, if a book fascinates me, I make sure people around me read it. It’s more or less a regular fairy tale and the story, to a large extent is same as that of Cinderella but there is something about this book that continues to enchant me even after so many years.

2) Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri- this is an awesome book. I read it 2 summers back. I am proud of the fact that I own it.

3) Eragon by Christopher Poalini- this is an amazing book. It’s basically about a boy named Eragon and his dragon’s adventures.

Poalini has proved his talent in his very first book. It’s a must read.

4) The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand- this book is sensational. It has a great story line and a mind-blowing plot. It’s got my basics right!

I would strongly recommend it!
I would love to own this book (my birthday is in August btw!!) ;)

5) A walk to remember by Nicholas Sparks- again a very well written book. It brought me to tears. And well now, do I need to say more?

6) The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown- this is a book, I’ve admired all the way long. It’s just too good. I was particularly fascinated by the facts and the definite hard work that would have gone behind this book.

My turn to pass on this virus, I won't call it hapless though…;)

Shubhi
Shraddha
Abhinav
Chirag
Aditii

The last week...

It’s been such a long time. I have been particularly busy with something on the other. For a fact, I haven’t yet started with my project.

The turn of events haven’t been anywhere near satisfaction. The last two weeks have been quite eventful and yet not so. There have been sleepless night (because of the fact that I have been sleeping every afternoon these days) and there have been tiring nights. There have been pleasant days and there have been even more unpleasant ones. There have been days when I wondered if I could just keep running and never stop. There isn’t any particular reason for this or perhaps, there isn’t a reason at all.

This weekend should have been probably the most pleasurable one. Perhaps, time has something very different in store. Who knows?

To be a bit more precise, here's a recap of the last week or so. I went to my grand mother’s place for a week. Papa had to go and mamma was still not back. It had been 4 weeks and I missed her beyond limits. Now with papa gone, I had nothing but my dear novels to keep me busy and distracted. I finished The Fountainhead. It’s a truly amazing book and I discovered how a book can have an ever-lasting impact. It’s changed my point of view to a large extent.

After 2 days, my massi came with Sanya and Anoushka. The two cartoons left me exhausted on days. They really did keep me distracted from the fact of not seeing mamma since such a long time. Anoushka will turn three in a month and 4 days. She is the most vivacious child I’ve come across. I hope she remains that way.

The week, however took a long time to finish with mamma coming on Friday night. But the following weekend saw us in a lot of tension because of some luggage problem followed by my dadi fracturing her hipbone. She was admitted in the hospital and was operated on today. She is to remain under observation tonight. This thing requires months together to recover. There are tough times ahead.

I can only hope for the things to return to normal.

Raman came back from Bombay yesterday, after a month. It was so nice to see him. He couldn’t get in IMO (International Maths Olympiad) but I am sure it’s been a wonderful experience for him. He said the hostel food was hopeless and thus he slept without having dinner for days together.

I spent the day with Raman and massi. It was a day well spent after a long time.

I really got to go start working on my project now.

And oh!! Did I mention I bought a guitar at last?
Woohoo…
Got it for 6500 rupees. It’s all black acoustic jumbo size one. I’m quite happy with it for now.

Helloooz..
as promised im blogging.. (i dunt want knksha doin voodoo to me)
so hows this place pretty cool... okay ppl who dunt no io went to singapore instead of tokyo.. last minute thingy.. spent 2 days there.. went to almost all the malls.. hah.. n the so famous mustafa.. it has really nice chocolates.. hehe... theen iw ent to esplanade.. its this place in siungapore basically like a huge theatre hall.. with drama perfomances... etc.. on the ground floor there is the water front next to the sea.. its so beaqutifull.. there was this band perfoming by hanging of wires... haha.. n i ate icecream on bread! hehe..singapores weather sucked.. so bloody humid...
then we flew to los angeles.. drove to san diego.. its so nice here.. its chilly here... neways......
i plan to go to the beach tday... then sea wrld later this week... n disney land next week.. so anyways
i want every1 to mail me!!!!!!!!!
Got it! chalo im goin to go watch the movie i rented.. while i wait for my sis to cm pick me up
byeeeee
shubhs

I think I have seen her somewhere
I wonder, as I pass by her
People so familiar yet so strange
Then it strikes me
My best friend in 4rth grade
Once like a sister
Now not less then a stranger.

As I flip through the pictures
I see a dozen friends
Worth keeping forever
But lost every single
I know something went wrong somewhere
I didn’t call up
She didn’t care
That day I learnt
Only some friends are forever

In these years
I made new friends
Some like the old ones
Some very special
But I guess none can take the place
Of those left
So instead of regretting them
I cherish every picture

When you tell me
I’ll be with you forever
I’ll pause and be silent
Cause I know that won’t happen ever
How hard I try, I know
I’ll have to let go

Life’s a journey
I have to take alone
How much you try to hide it
Or wherever you try to escape it
As much as I want it
We will never have these days again
I know its not impossible
I have seen people do it

But I don’t want to hope
And then be crushed later
So if 10 years from now
You think of me
Well remember this
Even if I have a dozen friends
No one can ever replace you

Of my little obsessions...

"The time has come,' the Walrus said,
'To talk of many things:
Of shoes - and ships - and sealing-wax -
Of cabbages - and kings -
And why the sea is boiling hot -
And whether pigs have wings."

I was going through my copies and from nowhere came a copy of fourth standard (that is of 6 years back). On the last page, I had scribbled this extract from the poem 'The Walrus and the Carpenter' written by Lewis Carroll. I tried very hard to remember why I had written it there. But it was of no use. Perhaps, few memories are erased with time.

However, I decided not to give up and kept thinking about it. Now, I finally remember and this victory is rightly sweet. The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph!

I remember having an Encarta encyclopedia at that time. It had this collage section, which I always loved. At one point of time, there wasn’t a thing that I didn’t remember of the children’s section collage. It had different animations on children’s books and poems. It specially stressed on Lewis Carroll’s works. There were different cartoon characters. My favorite being Winnie the Pooh. This and much more in a spread collage. I adored it, and even more, loved it. This extract had also been there with the various other things. I assume I would’ve scribbled it down just then.
I took out that CD only to find it in a non-functioning state. I had been so desperate about being able to make it work but I had to face tough luck there!

This was one of my childhood loves but an album of Princess Collection topped the list and perhaps, always will. It happened so that once some nice people had come to my school for a small competition. They showed us a board with some random fishes, promising a prize, and all we had to do was to count them. Considering that my class was a bright one, almost at once everybody raised their hands, ready to blurt out the number 13. They repeated this exercise in every section (we only had 4 in St. Thomas’) and the lucky 4 people’s name were put in a jar. A chit was taken out and the winner was from my class. It was Jada. She got a Walkman and this album in a cassette. Considering my age, I think I was about 8 years old or so, the album, which had a pink and silver cover with the leads of the most famous fairy tales, instantly fascinated me. There was Cinderella, Snow White, Jasmine and Ariel, the little mermaid.

The next few months saw me looking up for that album. I finally got it at Ebony, South Ex. The following years had me treasure that CD and I still love it. It’s fascinating songs can leave anyone enchanted. In simple and plain terms, I was obsessed and addicted to it. About a year back, I parted with that CD when I gave it to my cousin Sanya who is seven years of age. She is the only one; I can ever give my treasured possessions to. She is my darling. I hope she finds good use of it, just like I did.